Welcome back i guess?

At last i finally found sometime to do this, alot stuff have happen since my last post, but i guess i am still lost as i ever have.i well i am now 19, a second year college student.Everything is so different yet nothing special have change or even occur.I have less time finding myself now cause i am hooked up in a relationship.Things get more and more hard to me cause she is leaving me because  she will continue her master at Scotland while i am trap here alone.Will we ever get to see each other in the future or will it all end when 14 September comes.Lost and with no real goal in life ,now it an empty space some where inside me.God help me :/